my dear friend, i have known you for 6 years now, you saw me become a woman and you were the person who made me one too. i know i said we could still be friends after that but it just kept on happening. my body found itself wrapped around your bedsheets more times than i could count. i started wanting more. it scared me. i didnt want to ruin the friendship we spent years building, but my heart could hold it no longer. i confessed and you rejected me in the kindest way possible. after all than i said we would stop holding eachother, stop craving eachother. and we did. but only months passed and we were alone again. we were weak. you for the warm feeling of holding someone, and me for the delusional idea that maybe you would want more until you became addicted. you never lost control. please lose control.