No one knows the truth, no one knows how I truly feel inside,how completely shattered I am by all of it and I just get to sit in silence. Pretending that I am okay to avoid the questions of why and the fact that I just am tired. Tired. Tired, so Tired. But why? Im 21 why am I so tired? Why does it have to be this way? I feel so disconnected it’s crazy. I don’t believe my life went this way and I have no one to be there for me. I dont sleep, sleep isn’t even the right way to describe what I go through. I’m floating looking at my sad lifeless body toss and turn in the sheets begging for 1 second of rest. Then I wake up, waking up is the worst, someway again I don’t fit. Somehow im not enough today, somehow take photos for you to just look at another, somehow you revert back to your old ways. Do I revert back to mine,I was raised and viewed as some rag, some broom to help clean up. Maybe I revert back to that, I’m so tired of peoples view on me as a parent, i’m sick I need help mental physical emotional, you don’t know me and you try to say that how I feel isn’t a big deal, brush me off like the others. I don’t have anyone, no one. Wow I look at my life as a whole always moving around and never once being able to be in the moment, always taking care of others, I never had a childhood, I barely remember my past,I don’t understand my present, I feel shamed, unworthy, I am so tired. I didnt ask for this, I don’t want to be singled out in my life, I wish I had courage.I wish I had peace.