it's this passion, baby passion gets old it gets tired and i, i, i feel tired. the lights are beginning to blur out of focus. i haven't felt much like myself lately. oh dear, where've i wandered off to again?
please. please take this squishy heart out of my soft chest. i am so tired of its incessant beating. i try telling it to calm down and it never really listens. stupid thing. please oh please take this anxious brain out of my heavy head. i am exhausted from the way it tears me down. tears me to shreds. makes me cry. everything inside me is against me.
if i could wish for one thing it would be to stop feeling for just one second. i am so tired of feeling every little thing. every silent second. every tick of the clock. empathy is not what i signed up for. get it out get it out
but when i feel everything i want numbness and when i'm numb i want to feel it all and i am never content with my lot and i think far too much and yes yes i have already thought that out and yes it ended badly for me it always does and yes i have thought about that too and yes it ended with me on the floor and won't you just turn my ******* brain off won't you just make it stop i don't want to feel any more i am so tired of feeling everything i need to make it all stop i just want to be numb to it all i don't want to feel i don't want to feel and i feel like a child
and what do i feel before i fall asleep? all the what ifs and could've beens that drive me to insanity.