Is my mind unraveling or raveling too tight?

Questioning what it means to be human,
To be alive
To stay alive
Is it worth anything?

Too scared to be ungrateful
Too self involved to be grateful

Too scared to expand my mind
Scared that I won't find enough if I do

Unraveling or raveling,
Either way,
I may have lost all joy,
Belief,
The intangible and foolish hope...