i mourned us on the train back. North East to London, Norfolk into Suffolk into Home.
England, a green, scarred patchwork, blistering apart while i sit. A woman opposite tries to coax the context out of me; the entertainment, before we're pulled into Liverpool St Station.
to credit my memory - it frames itself nicely, my mugged up glasses. a sunbeaten, reddened, ruddy face - holding back. swallowing the outburst -
"i let myself believe for once."
we sit. the quiet unbroken. save for the sounds of me steadily getting further from you.
the sounds of me steadily getting further from you.
i mourned us once again. ten months in and now six months out filled with immeasurable moments later. there was no woman this time. and only without her or us - i found the truth to say