Finding another way doesn't make it wrong some have to do side stuff to help you get to the next level. Meeting people you wouldn't normally friend but you learn so much from others than your actual peers sometimes. Should've focused on this career more than partying and saving friendships that aren't meant to be.
Staying strong through those tough times. Feeling like you are built up so someone could come take shots at you. A cheap shot to try to keep you level and humble; who are they to do so. You respect them they clearly have no respect for you. Getting older makes you not want to pry or get involved since everyone makes a fuss but does nothing about it.