Integrity,
The death of me.
An empathetic dichotomy.

Gaslit,
Narcissist.
I loved you more than I'll admit.

Feeling Abandoned,
Left alone.
Echoing thoughts that tend to drone.

Far too sensitive,
My heart, I'll drown again.
As toxic thoughts start to transcend.

Internal screams,
Decaying dreams.
Pragmatism, on my knees.

Tired.
Weary.
Heavy.
Dreary.
Difficulty seeing clearly.

Beaten.
Bruised.
Tattered.
Abused.
My empathy, once more, misused.

Trepidation.
Meditation?
Ego death by self-medication.

Culminating fears,
The weight of years.
Cleansing soul in deluge of tears.

A guiding light?
I cower in fright.
Yet I'll keep going, in veil of night.
Driven, purely, out of spite.

06/29/22