I feel selfish for feeling this right now
ungrateful even

I wanted to yell at him
I’m destroying myself please
stop me, please, stop me so I can love myself
please, you can stop me, I won’t destroy myself to pieces, I’ll do all the work just please
stop me

what happened to making sure I was fed
what happened to making sure I had structure
why was it all talk
what happened to making sure I was protected
what happened to making sure I was healthy
what happened to that!

what happened to protecting me from me
what happened to giving me routine and
structure and helping me explore and grow and

I need a push I need a green light sometimes
okay I need it sometimes
sometimes people just need someone else
and that’s just me okay

I’m not ungrateful okay