The fierce knot within is a ball of black strands with tentacles reaching out in every direction threatening. I know I need to face this cowardly menace or it will keep growing into a yawning void. I hear Lucifer knocking at my door his insistent thumping says he’s annoyed because he knows I am buoyed I am ****** away from the black hole into this bright river’s flow.
I am again facing anxiety. I know why this darkness threatens. My closest friend, only four or five months younger than I, again has cancer in another part of his body, one of his doctors mentioning hospice. It has thrown him and me for a loop. No, I don’t have cancer that I know of, but I am closer to death than I have ever been. I guess we can all say that. But here I am in the same river with him, sometimes buoyed but sometimes threatened to be taken down by the undertow. Writing is a facet of the diamond of my salvation. And this whole situation has brought home how we are all part of the same Reality in a Universe full of darkness and stars.