Do I want to see the forest through the trees if that also means the hornets in between? There's a comfort trail of nothingness leading beyond the sun setting west towards a dark abyss looming my friends try to soothe me by saying it'll be like before I was born but at that point my life ****** even more so the vastness of the universe reminds me that my bullet hearse isn't blessed or cursed it'll just disperse like the tears on the face of my clock coming from the face I show not a shocked ant on a spinning rock with vertigo fearing it'll fall off knowing once the spinning stops there's a darkness block with nothing to be bought or sold not even gold can reverse getting old so I don't want to see the forest and I'll hide behind the trees getting lower on my knees praying God help me please because I fear that final release.