if i move i will break
like glass
in a flash, a crash
of splinters and shards
i wish i could wake from my bed, move my head, make a noise
all that leaves my mouth is a whimper
a mewling sigh
i wish i could shake myself, wake myself, open my eyes
all that leaves my mind is a panic
a writhing snake
blankets tie me to darkness, the weight of a sadness
permeating the room
the breeze whispers the temptations, the life outside
but if i move i will break
if i move i will take a hit to the stomach and fall to the floor
if i move i will be eroded by the acid in my veins
if i move my mind will no longer wallow in mud but place itself
back in my head, but my mind is my enemy
a ****** to take me out, landmines or traps, car smashing, a lift crashing, the list is endless
if i move i will shatter, i will spread my atoms into nothingness.