what does it mean
when you realize you
have been trained for
over a decade on how to
respond to an active shooter
via your exposure
to the realm
of educating children?

what does it mean
to know all
the actions one would take
in any building
with any variety
of construction,
or number of people
all with varying degrees
of physical ability?

to know the defenses
the tricks
the tape
the block
the quiet voice
of strength?
the look in the eyes
of control?

the everyday objects that
would make a good weapon.

what does it mean
to know exactly how many children
can fit in the closet?

here?

what does it mean
to know that HERE?

what
IN THE ****
does that mean?