It’s been 3 years since it happened I haven’t thought about at all till last night, when I was asleep I thought it was just a dream and that it didn’t really happen. But it did it did to me and I always blamed myself because I thought I loved him. I got told afterwards that it was my fault that because I was with him it was okay that I wanted it. After saying no a few times and I remember pushing him off me I gave up maybe if I let it happen it would go past fast, this dream has really ****** with my mind it’s all I can think about it and opening up a case just to relive it is something I don’t want to do. But maybe I just need to talk about it idk if it will help I just want my mind to forget about it.
I don’t understand how my mind can block out my abuse but not this.