its not the pain i feel each and every day
its not the loneliness that creeps up from behind
its not the darkness that surrounds me
its not the people who left me behind  

its not the sky, the birds, the breeze
its not my friends by my side
its not the voice inside my head
its not the fact that i tried

none of these things even matter
no one really cares
so why do you even bother
when you're not even there

dont try to tell me its what you wanted
dont try to tell me it was true
cause you and i both know
i was not meant for you