the universe must have some sort of humiliation kink
all these stupid ******* things keep happening to me
shouldn't let it knock me over but it's a lot to conceive
so much to do and fix and be
but i'm so tired of being angry
of hating everything that hates me
fighting things they cannot see
to keep the castle from crumbling

but **** the castle
and the walls they want
i'm bare on this altar
and ready to bleed
the only reason i hurt
is because i care for you
and when i don't want it anymore
you cannot keep me here
when it isn't worth it
i charge forward
you cannot hurt me anymore
this is what they mean
when they say
forgiveness is for yourself
you dont know me anymore
and that's gonna eat away at you until you die
maybe that's just enough for me