I wish and I crave, I am only temporary They say happiness is a season, is a band aid, is a Small breeze not a winter's storm I tell you it matters I feel that it does But I don't even know what I want between us I swear I'm not lying I swear I want you But.
There is always a but but never what follows I come up short There is empty where there should be reason, Where there should be definitive knowledge Wisps and smoke and empty thoughts that don't hold Are you telling me to leave or are you telling me to settle If I am a tree, if I settle my roots and crack through stone and I Raise my arms up to the trembling sky Am I crushing a mountain to hold myself aloft? Do I deserve such opposition, such work to make us? Is it right that you are stone, you are mountain and crushed beneath my razored toes? If I tremble to the mighty mountain as I delve into its depths Who is the giant and who is the ant
I ask you to change and morph I ask you to be the dreams of a paper-bound girl But my voice is a hum of electricity and crackles And when I watch you and hiss The only sound is that of your laugh, eyes trained on someone else I ask and I ask inside and only that side The out is too far for my thoughts to reach
Perhaps if you were rich soil and I a small sprout You could grow richer and I taller And no one is cracked and broken into pieces No one is gnarled and no one is fading We nourish each other and create a forest And I never wish to crush you beneath my aching, exhausted toes.