please go away
leave me alone
thoughts in my brain say
'they'll find you when they get home'

what do i do?
i cannot hide
the searing pain in my chest
ceases to subside

so there i am sitting,
debating where to go
stay for another scene
or join the cast below?

far beneath the waves,
into the deep black
if i should choose to go,
i wont be coming back

anxiety floods me
saturating my mind
never letting me be
is this goodbye?