i talk like a blinding light i shoot my opinions out like rockets not asking, “do you want to hear it?” and i hate my voice as much as myself and i hate my opinions hate my face hate my bones hate the way i’m obsessed with you hate the way i’m clueless around clusters of stable fairies hate the silence when i want to speak hate my tongue hate my clothes hate my beliefs hate my friendships hate that i hate my friendships hate the way i crave laughter hate the way i ruin moments hate the rawness of emotions hate when i run into doorways hate awkwardness when i can’t hear a word hate waiting hate the way the sun shines like a bullet hate the social interaction hate everything but i don’t hate the boldness the flavor that you bring me cause before i ate warheads and called them sweet like the only word in my dictionary but now i’m indulging in candy it tastes so bittersweet because i didn’t know anyone could love me like i wasn’t a disease like i wasn’t an ant to step on or a watermelon seed to spit out and i thank you because it’s almost been a year and you make me hate myself a little less.
“It’s almost been a year and you make me hate myself a little less.”
Since you entered my world A thunderstorm is just a small interruption Anxiety is just an illness