Black ice

It can’t be seen only felt
You won’t know it exist
Until you fall
You won’t feel pain
Until your already on the ground
Adding to the coldness
I was safe
I was warm
Until I took my first step
I slipped
Never knew I could fall so hard
On black ice
You aren’t here
But your presence is
And I slipped on black ice
Your my first step
The most painful
The most embarrassing
But I still managed to fall
**** I couldn’t stay on my feet
But I sure do feel the numbing sensation of the ice
How could I be so reckless
I’ve been surrounded
By black ice my whole life
How could I fall for you
My traumas
Bad ex’s
My deep self hatred
How could I fall for you
Once again