because while i scrub the tiles I can't hear you in the kitchen I can't hear the words you say under your breath
While trying to get rid of the ugliness between the tiles I try to get rid of the ugliness inside me My head can only recite you words even if I try to imagine histories of other words even if I repeat my mantra aléjate de mi aléjate de mi aléjate de mi I can only hear those voices
Am I too much?
why is that the me that i thought was the best of me is the one hurting you? why is that i thought that everything was fine but every word every look every action was hurting you? why is that i was convinced that the worst was behind us?
is bad that even if you are telling me that I'm hurting you every day every second I can only cry?
am I bad for thinking in the way your words hurt me when you are the one hurting?
is this the best that I can get?
I just keep running in circles thinking that I'm close to the end
I thought that - does it matter what i thought?
the bathroom is clean now I didn't want you to enter I wasn't finished yet is everything I say that hurtful?