I'm numb.

I can tell.

I can clarify how I feel
Because I don't laugh when someone cracks a joke
I didn't cry when my grandma died from a stroke.
I don't feel pain or remorse
I can't feel happiness or sincerity.

Sure I have moments where I feel good
Like I have it all under control.
But that feeling always leaves me.
Enjoying life is like being on a really good high
Because there's a guaranteed crash.

I don't know how to fix myself.
I don't even know where to start.
My life is a broken masterpiece
Locked in a safe deep within my heart.