I hate how I'm wrapped around your finger
It's beginning to take a toll
****** into your vacuum
Like you're a ******* hole

Fantasies won't be fulfilled
I love to daydream anyway
Like a bad habit I can't seem to drop
I crave you every single day

Yes I know it's pointless
And only makes wounds bleed
But I can't get over the notion
That I am who you truly need

I smoke a bowl of Mary Jane
These days she's my only friend
Giving me comfort when it gets hard
But still it doesn't help me mend

It's like earth is set on torturing me
Because everywhere I look
I see pieces of what we had
In each cranny and every nook

And you'll come back to haunt me
Emptiness what I hate the most
Wish that I knew how to move on
Exorcise your residual ghost

It's difficult to accept this is real
Give up on all our wasted plans
It's good to hear you are happy
Don't know why I give a ****

I'm tumbling downhill at dangerous speeds
Headed straight for hell
I'm sure that you won't catch me
You're the reason that I fell

I wake up with a headache
Medicate as soon as my day starts
This bottle of ibuprofen
Doesn't soothe pain in my heart

I find my will getting weaker
But conceal emotions inside
And you know the moment's inevitable
When my feelings grow too strong to hide

I try to maintain composure
But my organs burn with dismay
It's only a matter of time
Til I admit I'm not okay