I've been feeling so weak,
No matter what I do I feel such a lack of energy within myself.
Empty stomach, heavy arms, weary legs, and light headed sensations; my physical state has been like this for a while now.

I don't feel company when people are around.
Inside its still just me, myself, and I.
I don't know what to do or how to even go about changing this.

When I wake up in the morning, I almost want to curse the sun for it rising again.
I'm out of energy and I can't do this anymore.
I'm hungry for something and I can't place my finger on exactly what it is.
I'm not okay.
I'm not fine.
My heart is breaking with every day that passes by
And I can't find a reason to smile.
I am not normal,
There is clearly something wrong.

I just want to sleep while knowing there's no specific time I have to be up the following day.
I want to eat and feel full.
I want there to be days when I have to wake up and no matter how bad the previous day was, there's a smile still sitting on my almost completely jaded face.
I want to hold while being held.
I want to speak and be spoken too.
I want to listen and have someone do the same for me.

And most of all
I want to be strong.