Obstacles impossible to pass
Each time I try I end up falling on my ***
Is there point to all the madness I face?
I fear that is not the case
Those walls in my way keep getting higher
I'll run out of steam and my body will tire
Frightening shadows chase from behind
Manifested from darkest corners of my mind
Things worsen
I start losing my breath
If I cannot catch it I may be caught by death
You don't know how close you are to permanent sleep
Until feeling the icy fog into your senses creep
See hurdles in the distance as I move
But hindered by flaws I can't remove
When will I be ambitious enough to succeed?
See results for all these drops I bleed?
You have no clue
Hard I have strived
To thrive
Only managed to survive
Take burdens and try to throw them out
They won't let me live without
Your will only is as strong as your mind
Seems to giving up mine is hopelessly resigned
Eyes set on victory but will not stay trained
Halfway they already feel strained
Off course veer
Terrible navigation
Still carry on in vain due to obligation
Terrified of letting down dearest to my heart
Wishing for a way I could go back and restart
But life is not a movie you can pause and rewind
With control buttons was not designed
Goal after goal watch myself throw away
Promising I'll get my **** together someday