It never leaves you
But you think it does
It hides behind a veil of good
You may feel comfortable for a while
Looking out the stain glass window of your house
Letting visitors inside
And You dont see it
Dont Feel its presence in your head
Wondering to yourself
“Is it safe now?”

The second you step out
Is when it takes its opportunity
Grasps your neck firmly in its grip
A montage of images fill your head
You want to scream
But you know you cant
Because it keeps you quiet
You can barley breathe
Body shaking
And your heart feels like its beating out of your body

And you need
Something
Anything
To distract your head
Or maybe even
End up dead