carried me long enough that I could no longer strife and anger for myself. You carried all these sins and melancholy on your back, only letting me taste the silver spoon in my mouth. You taught me me to sit and behave, make no unappealing sounds, but mother, your daughter belonged to anger and strife for your mother, all her other children, and for you whose only words breath that of broken reassurance and empty pledges of safety. All but a solace chant against reeking tyranny. My ears grew accustomed to the cacophony of revolt in between your lullabies. The blood of the covenant assimilated with the water of the womb. So mother, I ask you to pony my hair now and forgive me. Your children will dot all thoroughfares and bellow 'no' for you. So you do not have to kneel to every friend, to ev’ry conqueror, stroke their *****, then cry yourself to sleep