He looked in the mirror and asked who are you? What have you become? He felt close but slipping trying to find balance restore himself without being self destructive. He realized letting was hard but told himself its for the better. He Told himself don't go back to those bad habits. Be better it failed before you know the outcome. Things wont change all he wanted was to be himself and feel part of something not lower or deny himself to be accepted.
All he wanted was to get along coexist not pretend to be someone others made him out to be. When he belonged he felt himself grow and kept pursuing more. He wanted to change tired of settling cheating himself. He over thought but made sure it was worth his time the steps it took