parts are needing a change. to become willing and learn the art of letting go of worries and history. ending the useless scenarios of looping the unknown. moving past the fearful prospect of stepping out of the zone. overcoming all those that create meaningless stress.
it boils down to avoiding the usual suspects. great discomfort and embarrassment. mostly embarrassment.
easing the mind’s mantra of never can the wall, the facade, or curtain become compromised. never can the real person become known.
usually, nothing really bad ever comes after days of needless worry. some discomfort, but not truly bad.
i know this. i see this. i get this. frustration lies in knowing but never being willing, able, or understanding how to overcome.
learning to believe in myself. moving past trust issues. because it will be all alright. it will be all ok. it will turn out fine. maybe not as hoped, but it will.
taking to heart what luke tells rey, "this is not going to go the way you think."
casting private doubts worried becoming exposed is a daily fight