Life feels like a paradox, or at least like a tormented haunting. There's no point in chasing happiness because it was probably just an illusion to begin with. So what's left in this petty life of demented misery? It seems that there is no value anywhere I look. I guess I'm an open book. But I'm stuck pondering on what would have been life if it wasn't so blatantly took. So I guess this is it. Petty suffering until they decide who wins.