you never think the voices could scream any louder than they do, until your fingers trace the sides of your dads loaded gun. people told me to look up, but your face always grinned below me. so I laid with broken bones, and I never learned how to stand.
there are more crumpled poems mocking me at my desk than there are thoughts in your head. and there are more bullets in the gun, than tears on my cheek. tired hands cradled my face, and sad lips told me that I was precious. strong. but lonely eyes never peeked at the stitches holding me together, the ones you pulled to see if maybe I could crack a little more, before I shatter.
you never think the voices could scream any louder than they do, until your brain is climbing up the wall, and your blood leaks into carpet. people told me to look up, but my face was twisted in the water below. so the waves swallowed my frame, and I never learned how to swim.