I am the emotional roller coaster
You no longer wish to ride
I am the operator
Pushing levers that leave
Devastation
Sadness
Lies
I lie to myself every time I say I'm
Not in love with you
True I've tried to shake it
But I'm not a wet dog
Though I look it
This wet tear soaked fear
Cannot be shaken off
I feel the scoff you make
At my heartbreak
You see the subtraction
I draw like a backwards mathematician
We will never work and
I'm aware of that being manual labor
I'm under construction
Or rather the pre build destruction
Precisely timed building demolition
Once I've leveled myself and my head
We can start from the ground up again