He didn't want people laughing or talking about him. He was private yet the people talking did worse. He wanted to find love so he waited. While others had meaningless relationships and kids that got stuck in the middle. Not a parent but those kids come first their needs. Its about them now so some need to get over themselves. He would observe see the double standard as they try to justify their wrong doing. He made a mistake they would prey on him like if was plotting. They tried to hold his flaws over his head especially when they've done way worse. He wanted to be around family but they act like they have it bad and mad about something. Taking it out on family instead of confronting those who wronged them. He was thankful to have a room and somewhere to stay. He didn't make a fuss or say anything. Some trying to pull rank talking like they pay bills when all they did save up.