So many feelings and emotions
Inside this heart of mine
Almost like a sweet poison
Eating away at my fragile mind
Numbing my soul and brain
Making me feel like
I made the worst mistakes
Of my entire life
Why must I be human?
And suffer such painful consequence
I know I deserved it but
None of this makes any sense
But it sure is weighing heavy
On my tainted conscience
Please help, I've lost myself
Not sure who I want
To activate my heart
Not sure what I should feel
Whether any of this
Is even real
Whether it's fake
Or not?
I guess I'll never know
Tears in my eyes
I feel I've done wrong
I can't help but cry
When I think of
What I have said
What I have done
I feel like a criminal
Blood on my hands
I feel like I'm paying the price
For all my sins