You sleep peacefully unbothered. Whilst I lay in agony next to you. God I can’t stand it.
Your supposed to make everything better but it feels like your irrelevant to that purpose.
Then why am I still here?

Where do I go?

I can’t depend on YOU. I’m learning that. I hope that changes because I want to.
Surprisingly regardless of how useless you are I still love you.


I knew from the beginning you couldn’t do for me what I prayed but yet I stayed in this course with you.
What do I see in you?
You can’t provide me with my basic needs
What do I see in you?
Just what **** is this?


Is this all based of science in which I can’t help but need you?
I don’t want anyone else. I don’t feel like I need anyone else to be with. There is no other option but you and why is that?


Maybe I am blind at the moment with thoughts that push aside my feelings, because I’m not getting anywhere. This is a mystery yet to be solved.
I’m going to sleep now.


Good Night to the love of my life.