Apr 2021
I search for you
in the shadows of the trees
and under the light of the stars
illuminated by the street lamps
is a heart on the pavement
in pieces
I search for you
night after night
Even though
I knew you won't be there.
But still,
I expect to see you
sitting on the hill,
waiting,
smiling,
longing for my touch.
Every day without you
is a day I wish not to live
I can't breath
when you are gone
I cry at night,
under the covers in which we laid
I search for your body next to me,
only to find the cold sheets,
thrown away from me,
like you had gotten up,
and never returned.
What lies in your head, my love?
is it
regret
sorrow
pain
love
indifference
numbness,
or have you forgotten,
the way I loved you?
And the way you loved me more.
come home, darling,
and rest your heavy heart,
on my shoulder.
Tuesday, 4/20/21 @ 8:21pm
in the shadows of the trees
and under the light of the stars
illuminated by the street lamps
is a heart on the pavement
in pieces
I search for you
night after night
Even though
I knew you won't be there.
But still,
I expect to see you
sitting on the hill,
waiting,
smiling,
longing for my touch.
Every day without you
is a day I wish not to live
I can't breath
when you are gone
I cry at night,
under the covers in which we laid
I search for your body next to me,
only to find the cold sheets,
thrown away from me,
like you had gotten up,
and never returned.
What lies in your head, my love?
is it
regret
sorrow
pain
love
indifference
numbness,
or have you forgotten,
the way I loved you?
And the way you loved me more.
come home, darling,
and rest your heavy heart,
on my shoulder.
Tuesday, 4/20/21 @ 8:21pm
On Wednesday, 4/21/21, I found out that my most recent ex has a new girlfriend. He hasn't talked to me since we broke up. Other people already knew, and I felt like I was the last one to find out. After that, I couldn't stop crying. I cried all through second period. I was able to get a ride home before third period, and yet, I'm still crying. Did he really love me, or was it all fake?
