I hadn't been able to eat for days
For a week or two now I've been enveloped in a state of rejection
Rejection and disinterest
I am falling into old habits and as I stand in them now,
I am allowing myself to be swallowed
And I don't know what eats me, I just know it is not me who eats

I am thrown off center, I feel unworthy, as though I train so hard and still take home a second place ribbon every time