"What's a life experience that you would never want to relive again?" "Why?"
The worst pain I have ever experienced was feeling like my life was getting taken away from me. It felt like I couldn't breath. It felt like someone was taking away my breath. My whole brain. Everything.
I couldn't take it. I couldn't take it. I couldn't take it. I simply couldn't. I never wanted to relive that moment again but I missed feeling what I felt back then because... at least it made me think of her. The more I endured it the more I loved it. At least she made me feel something, even if it made me feel like I was dying. I just wanted love. Why couldn't I get loved correctly. I just needed love. I need love. I don't know what I'm doing now. Can I still love? I don't know how to love correctly. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry I hurt the ones I hold close to me. I just need someone. anyone.