I'm so in love with you...
tonight, I'll be dreaming of you
My sweet dream
I want to stay in your arms forever
I want to kiss you...
I think of you so much.
You're so sweet my love
I'm so in love with you
it's so cold
i wish we lived next to each other to warm one another up
like penguins do
huddle and cuddle
i miss you
your voice reminding me of sweet candy
my heart ache to see you again
that was too much time apart
again. again. again.
i couldn't wait to see you again
you're a beautiful blooming flower growing everyday
that i wish to only pick for myself
something troubling is happing in my heart
"What's a life experience that you would never want to relive again?"
The worst pain I have ever experienced was feeling like my life was getting taken away from me. It felt like I couldn't breath. It felt like someone was taking away my breath. My whole brain. Everything.
I couldn't take it. I couldn't take it. I couldn't take it. I simply couldn't.
I never wanted to relive that moment again but I missed feeling what I felt back then because... at least it made me think of her. The more I endured it the more I loved it. At least she made me feel something, even if it made me feel like I was dying. I just wanted love.
Why couldn't I get loved correctly.
I just needed love.
I need love.
I don't know what I'm doing now.
Can I still love?
I don't know how to love correctly.
I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry I hurt the ones I hold close to me.
I just need someone. anyone.
please love your children. please do.
you're so beautiful
your skin looks so soft, your hair is so well put
sometimes wanting to drive my hands through it
day dreaming about you is so,
if i can't do it
today you've straighten your hair, you look delicate, so noticeable.
i love the way you talk, no stuttering and a smooth flow of talk in you
today was the first time i heard you laugh differently then your other laughs
your features are so appealing
driving me crazy that i can't even talk to you
i don't understand why i can't just have friends
yes, i can talk but my insecurities and mind can too
i see things nobody else see, hear things no one ever listens to
it's hard to laugh when you feel like crying
very hard to speak when you don't feel spoken to
all i can do is look and observe at the people i forever wanted to be friends with
instead of pushing myself forward to make a connection
to feel less alone in this world
i'm pulling myself more backwards each second
i'm drowning in my thoughts and doubts
I don’t need you anymore, you said you would’ve been gone years ago was but you haven’t seem to be gone yet
I reminded you everyday of it
to make sure of it
You tell me to try harder
I do but you always talk to much about me, & to me
You come at me like a wave with no notice, Every time were together it gets more darker then ever
I found a way to talk to you
I found comfort with you
But it was awfully difficult
Feeling the smooth tears going down my cheeks from what you said the other nights, having late night crazy thoughts with you was lovely
You wanted to be dead with me
But all I wanted was to stop you
You wanted me to not see the light
I wanted to leave you to the dark
Just the other day you had me screaming in public. During that moment you told me to call it a life instead of a day
You got me though
You had me convinced that I actually wanted to stop trying too
I just need a hand to hold.
Forgot about me
I ran away with a big gun shot through my chest that night you told me those lovely words
You keep torturing me every night
even though your're not here anymore
You won’t leave me alone
All you bring is to me
Are these watery eyes
Everything connected to me
Your failing me each night
I guess I’ll sleep when I’m dead
Cause I can always hear your words
These walls each night
wanting to turn cold on the world, for the people on it
or maybe because i'm living with it
i'm myself's only one
i don't belong to such close people
i can't love. more i love. deeper it gets. meaning less it turns into.
don't know if i find her attractive anymore as i use to
too many thoughts at once.
I'm so sensitive
A bit of a touch from someone
I'm hurt, I'm in tears
Like a waterfall, the tears never stop coming down
A bit of yelling from someone
I'm on the ground
While my mind is spinning
It doesn't stop until I'm alone
A walk alone is what I've been needing lately
I enjoy my own company, instead of a chat
Peace is all I've been needing lately with my mind & thoughts
But haven't been getting that lately
All I'm hearing is screaming
Every hour of the day
Especially the nights
I love you from your bellybutton till your chin
I can love you from eyes till your lips
My love would end as soon as you showed lust
My love would end as soon as you conquer my body
I can love you from body till your soul
I can ***** myself in
Consume your soul and never let love be lost
I can’t never show my love when your around
Your reaction Is what I have always fear in
What do I have to do to get you to notice me? Change my hair, the way I walk?
My clothes, the way I talk?
What does perfect look to you?
I’ll make you enjoy what your looking at
We've known each other for some time now
Yet I'm still invisible to you.
My feelings run deep and how
I wish you only knew.
I see your face every time I close my eyes. To me, you just seem so different from the other people.
To you, I'm just a friend,
I settle for friendship in the end
Because I don't want to make a mess.
Until one day you finally see
That you and I were meant to be.
I'll wait for now but not too long
Because sooner or later I'll be gone.
So when will you notice me?
I’ve met someone who reminds me exactly of you
It’s strange, because it’s not you
She’s always saying the same words you’ve said to me before
She looks at me the way you did
But it’s not you
I didn’t want to love her
Because it wasn’t you
When I look at her, she makes me think of you
I never wanted to think of her like that
But the more we talked
I’ve fallen for her
I can’t stay away from her now
Cause it’s you i see in her
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