"What's a life experience that you would never want to relive again?"
                                                                     "Why?"

The worst pain I have ever experienced was feeling like my life was getting taken away from me. It felt like I couldn't breath. It felt like someone was taking away my breath. My whole brain. Everything.

I couldn't take it. I couldn't take it. I couldn't take it. I simply couldn't.
I never wanted to relive that moment again but I missed feeling what I felt back then because... at least it made me think of her. The more I endured it the more I loved it. At least she made me feel something, even if it made me feel like I was dying. I just wanted love.
Why couldn't I get loved correctly.
I just needed love.
I need love.
I don't know what I'm doing now.
Can I still love?
I don't know how to love correctly.
I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry I hurt the ones I hold close to me.
I just need someone. anyone.