I've always seen you in a frame,
But I heard you cry on the day it rained1
I wish I could hear you again,
But you left me the day I came


I heard the shovels dig,
I heard daddy’s tears,
I heard people’s prayers,
But I stayed quiet


I heard the people cursing me,
Their words overshadowing2 me,
But I stayed quiet,
I always stayed quiet


And at those times I couldn’t be,
I’d chug water, so that I cry to no one but me
Wear a mask so that no one sees,
‘Cause if they do, they’ll pick3 on me


I’d hide to walk to your grave,
I wished I’d talk a millions with youI was tired of staying quiet I thought you were too,
But when I started talking, you stayed quiet


Years have passed without you here,
I wish my birthday was celebrated like the rest of my peer4
Its been lonely, ever since then
All of my life, I’ve been living in a den5


I’ve seen you enough in photos, I wanna see you in person
Regardless of it being on earth or in heaven
Daddy never asked me for my gift, but this time he did
I have nothing but thoughts going ‘round in circles6


I was doomed7, I came with a great loss
My thoughts are jumbled, I can’t think of anything else
Every Christmas of mine has been blue8,
So, I can’t wait to tell daddy that all I want for Christmas is you.





  
1the day I was born
2thier words were too big for me to take as a child
3picking on someone means teasing or making them uncomfortable
4peer – friend circle
5den resembles limited exposure to others as I could not open up and reach out to others
6having many thoughts in my mind but I come back to that “one” thought
7being unlucky
8lonely/depressed