thinking spontaneous combustion counts as that 'inner light'

I put my trust in a medical faculty hoping one of the interns will find out what is wrong with me,

lucky?
well,
I had moments that grew into mountains which all turned to dust in the end,

so it's all fleeting?
I'm guessing that everything moves on the whim of a God on Mt. Olympus,
everything out there is sent here and sent here to test us.