as i let my heart break for the thousandth time
drying tears before they can leave my eyes
the most horrible thought entered my mind
why did it take me this long to realize

i
forgot
your
birthday

there's constant reminders that you're gone
and now missing you feels wrong
how can i deserve to feel like this when
i forgot your birthday

i had to ask and i was ashamed
i should've known and i wish i could make
some excuse to make this better but
i simply forgot your birthday

and i am told that i shouldn't be so hard
on myself but i'm sick to my heart
and hate myself for
forgetting your birthday

and now i realize
even now that i was told
i already forgot your birthday
again

i don't deserve to miss you