Writing everyday like its a matter of life and death. Sometimes it comes easy feels natural. Other times seek deep inside asking why? Trying to relate usually misunderstood another side nothing to hide. Taking things apart reconstructing them trying to make sense of it each piece plays a role. Rewired trying to make it work when others are quick to replace. Wide awake not able to sleep nerves are calm before needed a drink to unwind easier to open up closed up and closed off holding onto too much.