i abandoned you, so long ago
and i left my heart and soul abandoned too.

i built myself a life
with nothing and no one in it.
i tried to hide from the things i could do.

i made myself scared,
too scared to come crawling back,
too scared to assume that anyone could still love me.

i was scared to face you,
too scared to see what i had done, so i hid.
i was a coward, and an *******. i can never take that back.

i thought it was for the best.
i did it because i didn't want to believe
that anyone could love me, without hurting me in the end.

i tried to save myself.
but left you alone, with nothing to hold on to,
and i became the very thing that i had feared the most.