let's make it a competition
how would you like that
if you could lose it would you risk it
or would you hold back
when everything is riding on your decision
do you still have time to be mad
if you would lose me would you risk it
because that's starting to become the facts

i don't hate her
i hate me
can't feel happy
lately
it's not that deep
i'm crazy
it's already over
but i'm still waiting

i'm still hung up
still held back
asking myself
what the **** was that
replaying every second
taking my time to backtrack
when you're already moved on
i'm caught in the facts

and you could say i'm overthinking
and i shouldn't let it get to my head
but this isn't choice because if it was
do you think this would be what i would ******* choose

why in the **** would i want to feel
like even at my best
i'm still a last resort
to you