I could not find the words to describe
How your words were falsely unified.
In your brain, you plastered them together-
Hoping to win my heart back.

'I'm Sorry, I love you.'
Verbatim.

'She meant nothing, you mean the world to me.'
Verbatim.

Remember when these words slithered out
The time before,
And the time before that?

And I stand here, yet again like I'm on a loop.
Medusa won a staring contest with my soul
When I walked into our sanctuary and saw your
6" soul haunting her narrow corridor.

The walls shivered, our planets froze.
The starry colours left my sight.
I lost count of the moments between
You moaning 'I love you'
and her scream.

'I'm Sorry, I love you.'
Verbatim.

'She meant nothing, you mean the world to me.'
Verbatim.

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I'm losing sleep, missing pieces.
I cannot do anything but change it all.
The life we lived
Is a life I must continue to live-
Not as us. But as Me.


I dropped my paint and let it splatter-
Our once white walls are now splotched pink
and light blue.
Periwinkle and Bumble bee yellow.
Magenta and Orange-red.

MY WALLS SCREAM MINE MINE MINE MINE MINE-

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Our sheets are now my sheets-

But I hate the 100% cotton comforts
where we rolled and kissed and slept.

Where SHE arched HER back and came to me crying in the doorframe.

So I pour 3 fingers of whiskey as the ashes consume those thoughts.
I let the flames burn the grasses, dry the land, warm my heart.

MY sheets are pastel pink with white lace accents.

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Our home became mine and our **** became mine and our hearts stayed yours.
I am a cigarette ****, scathed, warm in mother nature's soil.
I am a rose ripped to petals left to trail the way to something.
I am warm milk at the end of the bottle that the child cannot drink.
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-I am soaking up the sun today-
-And for once, I am Okay-
-And I'm so glad you're gone-
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♡I'm Okay♡