I think it's time to accept it

I don't want to grow up anymore

I don't to be older
now I'm old

I can see the dark circles under my eyes
sleeping more than I should

I still feel so tired

I drown everyday
choking on the air we breathe

I know we're not little kids anymore

nothing feels enough
I have everything and nothing

don't hate me for missing the old days
thinking about the years leading up to all of this

I know I must grow up
all alone without help

I'm scared and excited

I think I can see something new in my eyes