I can’t feel it,
It’s not even beating,
I’ve been hurting for so long,
I just wanted it to end,
Now that it has,
I pray to feel something,
Even the pain was enough to keep me alive,
Enough to know that I’m still human,
or at least some type of species here living on some type
of weird planet,
can’t tell if it’s Earth or just somewhere that I’ve drifted off to in my head,
my own little planet where everything wasn’t just a
face that I had to put on telling everyone
Oh I’m fine,
this planet wasn’t a place to be anything that wasn’t who I was,
no one else was there,
no one else ever bothered,
I was just fine being me,
But now it’s like
I feel hear think nothing,
I’m completely numb to myself and the world around me,
completely deaf to what’s in front of me and blind to what I’m being shown
But sometimes it’s in plain view and I can hear it loud and clear
Once life is numb, life is over