I wish I could go back in time
Tell you all the things I learned
At the time I wrote this
Remember that poem you wrote me
When we were just a young dumb
Teenage kid trying to figure life out
That never changed unfortunately
Just got older
Even more responsibilities
Remember how badly you wanted a family
All to yourself
Do all the things your mom and dad
Didn't do with you
Relive some of those memories
The pleasant ones you did have
You had the opportunity
But you chased that dream
With the wrong girl
The only victory reward you got
Was that beautiful little girl
We named before we even had her
The compliments of how beautiful
Her smile and energy is
Really baffles me
I know she didn't get it from her mom
Even though me and you tried
We still can't measure up
To how awesome she is
I wanted to thank you
That younger version of myself
For not taking your life
Even though it was a constant option
We fought nearly everyday
And now to the older version of me
I hope when you read this
If ever you get the opportunity
I'm sorry
For being so reckless
With the life younger me
Fought to save
7 car wrecks
Broken bones and titanium rods
A house you rent
With your closest friend
We might not have had anything then
But slowly we've moved up
I won't stop living
Even though the option is there
I still fight it from time to time
Just like being able to see
That precious little smile
Calling for her daddy
I can't promise you tomorrow
All I can do
Is hope by the time you read this
We've gotten more of what we wanted
What we really needed
And I know the me now
Doesn't want love
Yet I hope it found you
Pulling you further away
From the abyss
We found ourselves in today
That tattoo on your right hand
A tribute to younger us
A reminder for older us
We're just one memory away
From never existing
And hey Rob
Quick little side note
Even as much as I hate us
I still love us
For the friends we made along the way
Tell them a younger version of you
Said hello and thanks for sticking around
Through all the crazy dumb ****
We seem to have gotten away with