what am i being punished for
i couldn't care any more
completely consumed yet still unsure
i'm still sorry about before

i just dont want you to see me
as small weak hurt and broken thing
i want to make you feel all good things
not be the saddest thing you've ever seen

i wanna feel like sunshine after a rainy day
the furthest possible thing from pain
melt every little worry away
i wanna make everything okay

but i'm damaged goods i hate to say
i do more bad than good and i break
down at every obstacle in my way
i'm just so tired of having to push through barricades

and i hate that all of my inner mess
can have negative effects
on you cause you deserve the best
i bet you wish we never met